At night I met up with Bros( James, Chong Hwee, Chun Yip) for dinner and movie. We ate at long john silvers because the hawker stall at the top level of Far East was packed with muslims breaking fast. Lols I personally felt quite sad because the food is nice. Do I really look like a chinese? This man who was selling some religous stuffs totally avoided me but not the rest of the malays in the fastfood chain. I was relieved though but felt abit awkward. After dinner, we went to orchard cineleisure to catch a movie. But time wasn't on our side. By the time it ended, it would be around midnight. So we wrote off the plan to catch a movie. Having cancelled that plan we had for the night, we were kinda lost. All of us were totally out of ideas, seriously. We took a stroll to Plaza Singapura and stayed there for quite a while before we decided to train back home. But home was far away, James and I felt we could make another stop at LITTLE INDIA! Yeah you guys read it right.

It was packed like sardines in a can. No doubt the name Little India really lives up to its name. The 4 of us walked around thinking what we got ourselves into. Well the place was bustling with the crowd of bangladeshi workers stocking up on their groceries. 40 kilograms of rice, tons of curry powder, they were stocking up like there was no tommorow. We ended our tour at Mustafa Centre where Chun Yip bought some tiger balm or something. Took some videos there and on the way back. Youtube's a whore right now, under maintenance. Had fun although we were out of ideas. Here's a joke to crack u up.

One fine day, Prime Minister Goh Chok Tong visited India to meet their PM
to negotiate trade terms.

During the lunch break the Prime Minister of India suggested taking PM Goh
fora spin in his helicopter and view India's city lifestyle. As PM
Goh was enjoying the bird's eye view from above, he noticed an
overpopulatedvillage with unhygienic living conditions. A man was even
shitting in his
backyard. PM Goh was fast to comment how unsightly it is and that
India'speople
are so uncivilised. India's PM was so humiliated and vowed to himself
thathe'll humiliate PM Goh when he gets to visit S'pore.

When he really did visit S'pore the following month, PM Goh too offered him
aride in his helicopter to see the Singaporean lifestyle.

For a whole hour, India's PM was trying to spot a fault. Finally he saw a
placewhere people literally littered the streets, and as he had a
closer look, he even noticed a man shitting on the grass verge. He quickly
pointed
out to PM Goh about it and said, "You said Singapore was nothing likeIndia.
How do you account for this?" PM Goh looked closer, smiled and replied
"Aaahhh.. we called that place - LITTLE INDIA".

Today I woke up quite early. Felt super hungry. Didn't eat much on my pre dawn meal. Stayed awake till around 4am. I found a new love in rugby especially now since its the world rugby cup. Much much competitive than soccer and of course, much more physical. Oh Manchester United practically SUCKS right now. They've been the shadow of themselves this season especially Cristiano Ronaldo. Hate to say this but eventhough he scored last night, he is out of form. Nothing new to his play. Everytime he takes the freekick, its either hit the wall or goes way way over. Simply put, Manchester United need to find their peak form FAST, if they want to win the Champions League.

Ok enough of soccer. I went to Central market just now. Bought some vegetables and egss. Was expecting to meet with Baby after she ended her tuition but she forgot to tell me she was going to study with Bao Zhang. Hmm I missed her. Disappointed that I didn't meet her. Was hoping so much to meet her. Its ok, shall meet her next time soon. Hmm have nothing to blog. I'm quite stumped at this point. Haha =]

I'm feeling so bored right now. I laid down on my bed, eyes wide open. Stared at the ceiling till the sun rises and light shone through my window. Its been so long since I really slept through the night. I need sleeping enhancers. So when its night, I will sleep and when its day I will wake up feeling fresh. Haha since my timetable is fixed timing, 10am everyday. I guess I will be uniformed throughout the new upcoming semester. Wake up at 8am, eat my breakfast, take bus to school or if I'm rushing for time, mrt. Then school starts at 10am till 5pm. I'm currently thinking how to squeeze 4 meals at school. Minus lunch will make it 3. Guess I have to packet food from home probably, egg sandwiches and biscuits. Or if all else fails, I'll learn how to eat like Hui Qi. That girl really can eat, YES go read her blog if you think I'm lying. I've seen it with my own eyes, one word, SHOCKING! I wish I could eat like her. Then it will make me achieving my goals much much easier. Oh yeah I'm looking for a weekend job. Most probably working during the new semester. Earn more money, eat more food. Eat more food, gain more mass. Gain more mass, Sufyan's a happy man.

Oh yeah blogger labelled this blog as a SPAM blog. What the fuck! Luckily they reviewed my case and here I am, able to blog again. Oh yeah looking forward to breaking fast with susi and hanisah next week. If we confirm the dates, then will ask more to join us. By the way, I still have the free ticket to ZOUK, PHUTURE and VELVET UNDERGROUND. Ain't anyone the least interested? It expires on 29 September 2007. If only I'm 18, then I won't have to give it away. Can't wait to turn 18 then go clubbing with bros. Guy's night out. LOL wild night out. Oops baby will kill me if she read this. Haha I think go clubbing with them, I become guard because only they drink. So they drunk, I must "jaga" them. "Jaga" means look after. Especially Robert, later anyhow touch girl or guy. Then if Choke drunk like mad, how to drag him home? Finally Chun Yip, hmm I guess I don't have to worry about him. He can't drink much if I'm not mistaken.

Oh yeah I met up with Robert 2 days ago. We had a small tour around Jurong West area. Haha joked about some stuffs. Came up with ideas on how to carry out pranks on Bangladeshi workers. Haha shall not elaborate. If we do carry them out, I shall post about it. It will be so damn funny, I guess. Hmm guess I've blogged enough. Hee shall buzz off. Till next time. =]

Finally I can update. Just reformatted my laptop. Its better now, much much better. Hmm so here I am now installing all those softwares. Not to forget I have to go to school and install Visual Studio. Then I'll pop by the bookstore and buy what's needed for next semester. Its starting after Hari Raya which is around 2 weeks left. That also means that I can resume bulking. Haha can't wait to hit the gym. But timetable's a whore. Ass bitch, because I start at 10am and end at 5pm everyday. Worst thing is that I still have a module not yet into the timetable. All because I failed that darn module on my first year. Argh fucked up.

Oh yeah I got a new handphone. W660I. Normal phone. But any walkman model will do for me.

Hmm yesterday I broke fast with soccer peeps. Hafiz, Irfaan, Hafeez, Muhaimin, Fathir, Faizal and Suhaimi. We ate at Mr Teh Tarik which is located opposite Jurong Green Community Centre. Highly recommendable. Shall bring brothers makan there one day. After we broke fast, we played soccer. Heck we weren't even properly attired. Haha that didnt stop us though, for our obsessive desire to kick a darn ball. We played near the skate park. Initially, we had the place to ourselves. Haha but it wasn't soon after that other teams stormed in. Had super fun. Most of us had blisters after awhile. That still didn't stop some of us. Will play again next time with proper attire and footwear and I swear I'll score.

I want to be a better soccer player. Till now my dribbling is fucking poor. Heck overall also poor. Haha I shan't be discouraged. Will work better. Oh yeah just remembered that I have to choose my IS module today. Should be choosing Enhance Spoken English and another named Psychology something, forgot the name. Hopefully can get into what I want. So will KIASU abit log in earlier than the allocated time slot.

Hmm I'm looking to change my blogskin because this current one, the post box too small for me. I write also quite long so easier for people to read. =]

I never ever thought that it will happen. Its not the first time though. Somehow I feel that this time, the outcome would be different. If it does, I won't blame you. I guess many would have given up on me if they were to go through what you have. Therefore I won't blame you for giving me up, as much as I wished for you not to.

As much as I wanted to say "Let's not do this", I chose not to for I would be selfish because you're entitled to have your own time to think it over.

As much as I wanted to say "I love you" just now, I hesitated for I felt you didn't wish to hear that at that instant.

If the outcome would be different this time, as much as I would want to say "I want you back, Does it have to end this way?", I promise I wont say it for I respect your choice and also because you deserve better.

I'm not feeling too good. I need to relax. I need to get away. I need to be alone.

Today was well, hell. But I had a great time as well. First of all I lost my damn wallet. Left it in the bus. Went to chase the bus but was held back by bus captain. Shall not say what happen next. I was absolutely pissed. I was being tested. I almost lost control. Sigh, I waited and waited. Stood there at the int like a statue. Blood was boiling, anger raging. Damn driver I would have beat the hell out of you if you uttered one more word. Anyway here, I would like to apologise to James and Chong Hwee for I was rude. I couldn't help it guys. You should know better by now. Sorry to Baby for letting you worry. Seriously, today I did not only lost my wallet but I could have nearly lost my friends and myself.

So I went to meet Mum and John Little at Jp. I couldn't stay at the int by the SBS office anymore. Any longer and I bet i would have lost it. So after accompanied Mum to shop, we went back to int to board a bus home. I walked to the office and saw something familiar next to the staff. It was my wallet. Thank God. I claimed it back. Nothing was lost. I was so happy. Guess I'm lucky. Thank the Bus Captain too for his honesty. So I went back to Ah Ma house with Mum. James, Choke and Chun Yip were on the way back to Jurong. I planned to meet them when they reach back here.

I broke fast at Ah Ma house and then went to meet them at Percie's house there. James sent Percie something. So we took the bus to Jurong West at Hua Yi Sec there. We ate at the coffeeshop nearby. Was cheap and nice. Choke treated us. Kudos to him for doing so. Hee. Ate to our full, we went back to Jp and watched Rouge Assasin. It was my idea since the night was still young. LOL the movie was great. Quite complicated but I was only there to expect the fight and assasination scenes. Damn exciting. After the movie, we went home of course.

Had fun yet a moment of being in hell today. Thanks bros for the time and thank baby for being there for me. Baby you shouldn't fear me because if you do, I'll have nothing left. Baby getting her results tommorow. Wish her all the best. I love her.

Here I am surfing the net. Man am I bored to death. Holidays are supposed to be fun. Boo guess I'm too lazy to go out and have fun. If only I'm not fasting, then I can hit the gym. I miss the gym. I miss loading the plates on the barbell. I miss looking myself in the mirror and got motivated to pump out a couple more repetitions. Damn I'm addicted. I have to work towards my goal. Cant wait for fasting to be over. Hope by next mid year, I'll achieve my desired goals. You, my friends will bear witness. Hee but I really hope I can do it. Got to have confidence in myself. So Hui Qi and Kelyn when sch reopens, motivate me to eat k? Haha

Got to go. Look forward for dinner tommorow with bros. Hope Geraldine can join us too.

Today I met up with Baby early in the morning. Didn't sleep the previous night. We were supposed to head off to sentosa but we changed our mind and watched movie instead at Suntec. I know Baby is disappointed because she packed well for Sentosa. Sorry Baby, I'm just as disappointed as you are. Promise you before my school starts again, we'll have our first trip to Sentosa together. Well, we watched The Magic Gourd. Very cute and get this, there were only me and Baby in the cinema theater! Inside can play hide and seek la. Haha the movie was lovely. The only way to taste success is to work hard for it. I'm working hard for my goals. Are you?

Plans for this week are
20/09/07 Dinner with Ger, Choke, Chun Yip and James.
22/09/07 Singapore Air Force Seminar
23/09/07 Hopefully get to work @ Cruise Centre

Its getting worst. This feeling, this being, this animal, I don't even know what it is, is getting out of my control. I seriously don't know what to do. Someone told me before that I should see a psychiatrist. For a second after being told that, I thought of doing so. But much consideration I guess I could pull it off on my own. Things got better until this thing came back. Its much more severe than before. Each time it came, it wasn't getting any better. Today was the most recent. My mind was in turmoil. I couldn't control myself. It was so bad that I wished I could get myself killed or I would bash someone till he/she gets killed. Yes, I thought about death. That's how bad things have become. Many scenarios played through my mind like I was some serial killer. My mind was in a depraved state.

These "attacks" on me will go away easily. I just needed a walk, sit down and read book. I'm worried about the next time it will happen because I know it will get worst. God knows what will happen next. As for me, I'm trying my best to prevent it from happening. I've done it before but now its getting harder for me. Hai I feel that I'm losing myself to this "animal" within me. May god protect those around me.

Back to update.. Shall update about yesterday. I met Baby and we made our way to Vivo. I went to update my Posb bank book. Shall not disclose how much money I've spent so far but its horrible. My god I regretted not working but I guess I'm fine since its the fasting month now. Back to my time with Baby. Despite the burnt hole in my pocket, I spent my last $10 on watching a movie with Baby. We watched The Invasion which was damn cool! Nicole Kidman was awesome and so beautiful. The movie was great, its a must watch for all. Oh got to go. Update next time.

NAME : MUHAMMAD SUFYAN B MOHD DIN
COURSE : ELECTRONIC & COMPUTER ENG
CURRENT SEMESTER CREDIT UNITS OBTAINED : 25.0000
CURRENT SEMESTER GRADE POINT AVERAGE : 1.6429
SEMESTER OF STUDY : 03


ANALOGUE CIRCUIT DESIGN & APPLICATIONS
D+

DIGITAL ELECTRONICS
D+

ENGINEERING MATHEMATICS 3A
D+


FUNDAMENTALS OF OBJ-ORIENTED PROGRAMMING
D+

INNOVATION & ENTERPRISE IN ACTION
PX

MECHANICAL DRAWING & CAD
C+


RESULT : Passed


Need I say more? Haha I'm super duper extremely lucky that I managed to pass. Dead beat! I'm off to bed. =D

Ok shall update the outing with brothers to Sentosa which was on Monday. It was raining mind you but we were determined the sun will shine once we bare our bods to the sky. Here's pics when we were on the monorail. I think its called monorail, who cares anyway.



Well one word says it all. EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO. Kay that's enough.

Chun Yip. Forever so sleepy. Must be thinking abt the ladies in bikinis waiting for him at the beach. Come on Bro, WAKE UP!

James doing his THING! haha anyway the main focus wasn't him but rather the girls behind him. I'm just joking. Don't be angry Bro!

Anyway, we went to Siloso Beach. We changed and bare our bods to the sky. The drizzle didn't stop, sun wasn't out, the beach was totally empty except for us and the lifeguards. Mother nature was toying with our feelings. The sun stayed hidden behind the clouds even after we bare our bods. You could imagine how disappointed we felt and how bloody cold it was. The tiny water drops from the drizzle made things worst. It was torture. We initially didn't want to jump into the sea, fearing that that would just make things worst. Well, me as usual came up with an idea, we run and jump into the sea like warriors attacking the enemies tower. Of course, we wasn't warriors but FOOLS. Or were we? Shall post the video next time. We had super fun at the beach. Even at lunch, I must emphasize this, our HYPERCALORIC lunch. I shan't disclose how much calories we ate but its devastating! Haha.

Back to today. First day of fasting month. I woke up at 4pm. So around 3 hrs to break fast. Woots! Had to say I was hungry. Well, it takes some time getting used to. Will be fine. nothing much happened today. So off I go. Hopefully tommorow will be meeting Geraldine. Wish her to get well and will see her

Today i felt pissed. Everything wasn't right. I didn't meet Baby in the morning because I was too tired. She was disappointed I guess. Sorry. I didn't go out with Susi today because she woke up late. To make matters worst, I had tiny tiff with mum. So I went to Bishan alone to get the supplements from ATWSG. Great company having a promotion for the Muslims on Ramadhan. I, of course, will not allow such a good deal to slip by.

Anyway, that wasn't my only purpose visiting Bishan. I finally bought the Coca Cola t-shirt I wanted to buy so much. Searched for the design I wanted at other places but they don't have it. I consider myself lucky too, because initially when I first saw the t-shirt, it was $19 but now it is priced at $10. Man, great deals are the thing for me. Well not only for me I guess but to all Singaporeans. I bought 2 for myself and 2 for Baby. I didn't bother how much money I left in my bank. I just swipe that darn Posb card. After the morning I went through, I really didn't care.

Tommorow is the start of Ramadhan. Its the fasting month for us Muslims. It will be during my tertiary holidays so I'm not so worried. I'll just be dozing the day off. Looking forward to Hari Raya where I'll be seeking forgiveness from my elders and also CASH! Haha I'm broke at the moment so yeah, I'm looking forward to Hari Raya.

Will be watching the match England Versus Russia tommorow morning. I'm looking out for Gareth Barry since his performance in the recent match was so influential. Not to forget Shaun Wright Phillips and Emile Heskey, if McClown chooses him over Peter Crouch. All the best England!