Just came back from meeting James. Tiring night all because of a bicycle. Haha but fun as usual. Had super duper spicy fried kway teow noodles. One spoonful and instant reaction that sends your brain signals to fill your mouth with water. Haha yeah its damn spicy.

Took cab to school today. The fare was $14, which was $4 extra than usual. $2 was due to peak hour and the remaining $2 was for that traffic jam along clementi. Argh! But nevertheless I enjoyed that taxi ride because the conversation with the taxi driver uncle was meaningful. The moment he entered Ngee Ann, he drove super slow. Why? Its because he wanted to see the pretty girls in Ngee Ann. Eye opener for me too. XD just joking. =P

Tommorrow I'm meeting Kelyn and Hui Qi. Going to Parco Bugis Junction. =] Hope all goes well. I mean, me. Hope I'm able to refrain from mood swings. Don't wish to hurt anyone or spoil the mood. It applies to all my friends too. Sometimes I just can't control myself. I feel sorry when I do so. Since its the Hari Raya period, where muslims ask for forgiveness from their elders and others, I feel I will take this opportunity to ask for all my friends forgiveness. Sorry if I ever raised my voice at you, hope you don't take it to heart. Forgive me for my rash acts and nasty words. Hope that all would be forgiven. Especially Baby and Geraldine. I feel I've let these two down the most with my unthinkable behavior. Sorry. Of course not to forget my brothers, sisters and other friends. =]

Whoa. So tired. Just came back from Jurong Point. Met up with James. I had my dinner and we talked and joked as usual. Haha school was fucked up. Didn't attend morning lesson as per normal. So bloody damn tired. Argh. Went home with Kelyn. Nothing much happened today. I feel so lethargic.

Next Tuesday, Baby will end her GCE O Levels. Not officially though because she has POA paper 1 the week after next but never mind POA. Lols I didn't even sit for my POA. Gonna watch The Game Plan next Wednesday with Baby. This week hopefully going out with Kelyn and Hui Qi. Then soccer as per usual on weekends. I'm so looking forward to soccer each week. Nothing to blog le. I'm going to sleep soon. Good night.

Today school was crap! Totally crap. Didn't attend morning lesson. Came to school at 12pm. Immediately I crossed the zebra crossing, met my lecturer. I got him into trouble with the bitch lecturer next door. Got a soft scolding from him. Enough for me to colour my face black. What happen next just makes things worst.



Actually I was hoping to have lunch when I reached school but ended slping in the library instead. Wasted 1hour 30minutes. I went to eat for the last 30minutes of the 2 hours. Being lonely was hell. Felt like a total idiot coming to school that early. Baby kept me accompany with sms-es. After attending lessons from 2pm to 5pm. Finally finish my soldering which means next thursday I can end early. Haha yeah!



I met Kelyn and we both went home. Chatted all the way to her home and her workplace. She got her stuffs for work and I just accompanied her. Final destination was the same. The Stadium! Kelyn went to work but I went to the gym for the first time after near 2 months. On the way up in the lift to gym. I was with 2 chinese girls. Lols they seemed blur. Didn't know which level Nihon was. Lols.



Gym was stressful. Yeah you read it right! Strength has decreased drastically. Very disappointed. Didn't know would be so jialat but I'm slowly getting my motivation back. With time, all will get back on track. ARGH! Tommorrow will be meeting Baby. Hope will have a great time. Miss her so much. Hee.

Sunday will be playing soccer as usual with the guys. Then CRUNCH time, Arsenal versus Liverpool. Such a great match. Can't wait to watch it. Hopefully enjoy watching Liverpool get thrashed! Haha. Shall update again soon. =]

I'm tired.
Beaten senseless with assignments in school.
School's getting tougher and I need to buck up.
I'm losing the drive to get what I want.
Hope Baby is fine.
Miss her.

Played soccer in the morning. Fun as usual. Couldn't find my feet though. Had trouble coping with relentless heavy breathing and nausea. Feel so much better now. Gotta start training my stamina. Its been ages since I last ran more than a kilometre. Looked myself in the mirror lately. Felt sad because I lost quite an amount of mass. But its gonna change. Might need 1-2 weeks to get used to hitting the gym and eating as I have planned. I'm not as motivated as before though. Wednesday will turn things around and kickstart stuffs. Enough talk.

Another that's on my mind lately is my birthday. Haha will do a small bbq for friends. Will have to work out on budget first. It will be on the 1st which will be on Saturday or the next which is the 8th. I'm also making it in conjunction for my long time friend, James. He's enlisting into NS on 13th Dec. So it will be sort of a gathering for him too. Haha friends down together makan makan. Haha. But Bert, don't worry. I'm not asking you to share expenses or anything. Haha its just a sum pian thing since our circle of friends are almost the same.

Went out with Baby yesterday. Been a long time since I've met her. Last time was 2 weeks ago and then I had chickenpox. Frustrating two weeks. Some sort of test for our relationship. We watched Mr Woodcock. Didn't focus much on the movie. Attention was mostly on Baby. Missed her so much. I could just look at her for hours. Had a great day with her. Her O levels starts tommorow. Amaths paper 1. Man what a way to kick off the exam period with Mathematics. Haha been two years since I took my O levels. 2 years went past that easily. We're getting older by the day. Death may come anytime.

Death scares people. How's it like? Will it hurt? Where will you go after you die? If you sit down and think about it, death will scare you. I think about it sometimes after reading suicides, murder articles on the newspaper. Life has always been unpredictable. You take a day at a time. Make full use of the time with your loved ones. Be productive in life. Achieve whatever you set out for the day, be it completing school or getting your hair cut. Be loved and not hated for what you want to leave behind is a good impression on others so that you're living in their memories.

OMG. I can't believe it. What has come over me? After reading what I have wrote, now I'm scared. Am I gonna die? Haha Oh god I'm not prepared to meet you. I pray to be given time to repent on my sins and achieve my goals. I'm feeling eerie now. Got to shake it off. Gonna watch My Wife Is A Gangster 3. Thanks Qi for it. Loves. Ciao

Happy Birthday To Gorgeous!
Enjoy your birthday, Kelyn.

Went out after school today. Had dinner with Eilly, Kelyn and Hui Qi. Then Eilly met her family and went home. Me, Kelyn and Hui Qi went town after that. Saw alot of things that I want to buy. Sigh. No weekend job means it would take a long time to get what I want. Haha. Damn that Lacoste shoe with PIG lining. BOO, thumbs down. Shall go see the Topman bag tommorrow. If its there, I'll buy it, I think. Haha.

Going out with Baby tommorow. =] Will have fun, for sure.

Can't blog. Lazy.

Just did my schoolwork. I was never so enthusiastic in getting work done. I guess the lecturer played a part. Most interesting lecturer I've ever encountered. Haha went home with Hui Qi today. Finally met up with her. Tommorow will be going out with Kelyn, Eilly and Qi after school. I can't wait for Sunday. Hitting gym after 1 month plus out of action. Lols must say that I've shrinked. I mean my body. Can't wait to get started. By the way today Baby had her o level science practical. I wish her all the best for her O level's. She'll do herself and her family proud. Hee I miss her so much. Going out with her on Saturday. YEAH! Shall go scout for a new bag too. Not that I have the money to buy it though but who knows. Might stumble upon a bag filled with cash tommorow. Woots. Fantasise too much already. Haha till next time.

God look over her. Hope that illness or any sickness will be warded off. I pray for her to be fine and top notch condition throughout her exam period. May all go smoothly for her. =]

I'm not going school today. Its only the 2nd day of school. Man I'm getting hopeless.

Super boring day. Totally lost. I woke up at 12. Rushed to get ready and mrt-ed down to sch. Missed the 10am lesson. Had 2 practicals till 5pm. Bloody timetable causing me to bring my laptop to school everyday except Wednesday. I want a new bag to fit in my laptop. So bloody irritating carrying it with my hands everywhere. Anything but Crumpler bags are fine. Same class with Yi Hao for MPI and found out that we're in the same class for PDPR too. I must be lucky. Don't have to sit one corner with emo face all the time. LOls I don't intend to make new friends.

I miss Baby alot. I didn't knew she's not having any school today. She's at Hui Ching house baking cupcakes for her little sister. I forgot when is her birthday though. I'm hungry. Mum cooked sardines that were not to my liking. Too salty. Didn't take a second bite. James couldn't come out to accompany me. Should I eat Macdonalds or Kfc? Hmm shall decide later. I'm calling Susi out. Hope I have company. Its a torture eating alone, like I did in school just now. Lols Rahh Ciao

I don't know how things are now. Are we really done? Have she really given up on me? Does she really want not to hold on anymore? Am I too much? I'm simply not good enough. I'm dragging her down with me. So we might as well both let go. I can't believe this is happenning. Don't know wether I ought to cry or laugh. All I know is that I'm lost without her. I didn't want it this way till she said she can't hold on. I take that as she has given up on me. I feel so hurt but I don't blame her entirely. I don't know what I'm talking either. I'm so lost

Its Baby's and my 22nd anniversary today. Gave Baby a call just now. She's shocked. You didn't think I'd forget do you Baby? I'll never forget. I almost cry talking to her just now. I miss her very much. How I wish I could touch that face. How I want so much to hold her with my arms. I can't wait to get well. I'll make sure all spots are gone and then will I meet her. I'm not taking any chances. Exams are nearing. Baby I know its tough and tiring for you. I can't be with you but I'm always here praying and hoping for the best for you. I promise once I'm well, I won't be praying and wishing you the best anymore for I'll GIVE you the best. The best of me. I love you

School is starting next monday. Scars still on my body and face. Recovering quite well I guess. Feel so suck that I have to end holidays like this. I miss my Baby so much all because of this sickness. Also because of this illness, I lost quite a desirable amount of mass. Sian. Damn bored. Gonna watch Live The Dream now. Oh yeah, Xin Hui's acting in the Metamorphosis yesterday is so fake and exaggerating. Lols. Hope Fendi won't get kicked out for tonight's Live The Dream. =]

ITCH ITCH ITCH. The itch is killing me but I'm not scratching though. I'm chatting right now. Shall have supper later and eat my medicine. Will go to sleep straight after that. I find it super difficult to recover from chickenpox since my dad just got infected. How am I to recover if I'm surrounded by 2 people in the same plight as me? LOls I'm only worried about my face though. The spots are out. Hopefully all will be fine. Fuck this disease man. Mum was totally convinced that I had chickenpox when I was young. There was no way I could get it the second time. DAMN. But it has happened already and I just have to look forward to recovering.

I crave for alot of foods when I'm sick. Double whopper with cheese, Mcspicy, Kfc's chicken and zinger burger, rojak, mee siam, Boon Lay's nasi lemak and the list just gets longer and longer as each minutes passes. LOl. Hui Qi don't drool if you read this. Haha I go eat le. Till next time.

I'm feeling very worried for Baby right now. What should I do? If she has it, I'll never forgive myself. Please god, save Baby. I hope she doesn't get infected. Please save her and look over her. Please let nothing happen to her. I'm feel so useless. All I can do is pray and do nothing else. Hai I'm a useless asshole. Why didn't I find out earlier that I'm infected with it. Then I would have taken the necessary precautions and not meet up with Baby. Hai I'm literally dumb.

Chickenpox is not fun at all. But it doesn't stop me from having fun. This morning I played soccer with Irfaan, Wei Hong, Hafiz, Hafeez, Syafiq and James. Susi was there too. Been a long time since I played soccer. I kicked a ball onto an opponent's face, some spots burst, the team had plenty of chances and high fever came back after the match. Damn it was so GREAT. Nothing is gonna stop me from having fun. Not even chickenpox.

I just woke up. Slight feverish. I miss Baby. Hai she's studying with her friends. I can't see her till I've fully recovered. Please god watch over my Baby. Hai chickenpox symptoms will only appear 2 weeks after exposure. Hai 2 weeks from now, her O levels starts. Hai I really feel so useless now. Hope Baby won't get infected.

Damn damn damn! Bad news. I'm down with chicken pox. Had the outbreak yesterday evening. High fever until this morning. I've recovered from the high fever but not chicken pox. I'm afraid I'd infected Baby, Kelyn, Hui Qi and Eilly. I pray very hard that they won't get infected by me especially Baby. She's having her O levels soon. Yesterday I went to Hui Qi's house in the morning. She and Kelyn were sleeping when I came in. LOls Hui Qi the face damn funny when she saw me. Poor thing, she must be thinking she was dreaming or she saw a ghost. Eilly sneaked me in. I bought cakes slices for everyone. No money buy real cake. Lols I sat at the sofa watching tv while they got ready to IMM. Took bus there instead despite the hot weather.

I didn't join them at IMM because I went to meet Baby. We went to Orchard Cineleisure to watch Underdog. LOL lame movie but kinda relived the childhood experience. Haha after the movie, Baby ate at Burger King. Me too =X. Haha when we got back at Jurong, Baby went to Pioneer Mall to study with her friends. I went home instead. When I got home, I felt feverish. I analysed the spots that I first discovered after the movie. I took nothing of it. Must be some allergy. I took a nap but when I woke up, I had high fever. Took temperature to confirm. Damn I took another look at my body and found 2-3 more spots. I laid down on the bed. Baby sms-ed me but I kinda ignored her and didn't tell her my situation. I told her to sleep and I needed sleep too. We had a small misunderstanding. Shall not say. Sorry Baby. Want you to know that I'll and have never regard anything else more important than you. Love you.

Oh yeah. Happy Belated Birthday to Hui Qi.
Sorry bros for tio-ing this disease. Shall plan again.
Sorry Hui Qi, Kelyn and Eilly if you will get chickenpox through me. If tio tell me, I'll compensate you, seriously.
Baby I'll try find money for your vaccine injections. I really don't want you to get it and affect your exams. I'll try every measure to make sure you won't get it. I love you.

Can a 10 year old girl get pregnant and eventually give birth?

The answer is YES!

Shocking? Don't believe me?

Read this:http://www.expatica.com/actual/article.asp?subchannel_id=24&story_id=44380

I couldn't believe it myself. What will we have next? Sex education in kindergarden? Birth control injection after birth that lasts till you're 18. Lols! Ridiculous.

Today I met Baby after quite a long time. Missed her so much. Didn't accompany Kelyn to the doctor as a result. Luckily Hui Qi accompanied her. Hope Kelyn will get well soon. Damn I'm stumped. Fuck, I wanted to blog more but the mood changes. Haha this is me. I can change in a split instant. Not in the mood. Ciao

I'm about to sleep soon, so just a quick update. Broke fast today with Susi, Nabila, Irfaan, Syafiq. Hanisah and Ruzaini couldn't make it. We ate at Al-Azhar. Quite fun especially thinking back to secondary school days. Have to say that secondary school was the best time of my life, where I expanding my circle of friends. Great friends, those whom I'll never forget. It was also in secondary school where I first met Baby. Hee Anyway I've been really bored during the day and I decided to do a rough write up on a drama show that originates from my imagination and of course experience. Its a love story. See, I'm really so bored and have nothing better to do. Haha if only I could act it out. Some of you may know that my childhood dream was to become an actor which came after pilot. I'm not the daring type though so this childish dream of mine will never come true. Lols I'm tired. Good night

I'm bored!

Here I am blogging in the wee hours. Haha I just woke up not long ago. Slept like nobody's business. I didn't even msg Baby. So sorry. I was too tired. Well I watched Balls of Fury yesterday afternoon with Bros after our one night in Little India. LOL. The movie was funny but it soon got abit lame to the end. But some scenes we laughed our asses out. Haha well there wasn't anything else than that which I did today. After the movie when I got home, I slept till just now. Haha as usual I'm feeling damn damn hungry! So I shall eat now. Hee