Today is the most frustrating day I'll ever have. Firstly I woke up late and missed the lesson that I could not miss anymore. Got ready for afternoon class despite wanting to get an MC and not go attend school. Argh thought of it all the way till the interchange. Decided to go to school. Even after making my decision, I still wasn't in the mood to attend school. I was messy today, didn't do my hair, didn't shave my facial hair. The fact I purposely didn't bring my laptop to school when my lessons needed them showed how much I didn't want to go to school. I felt lethargic. I dragged my feet to class. I was lifeless. The pain of going through something which you didn't want to in the first place is so agonising.

I handed in the death certificate of my grandfather to the office to process my absence on Friday. When I finished school, I headed home immediately. I wanted to sleep on the comfort of my bed real bad. The journey home seemed never ending. Then I remembered I forgot to write my name and particulars at the back of the death certificate so that document would be identified and linked to me. Aww fuck. Just got alot worst, I ate my dinner and dirtied my sarong and hard rock cafe shirt with sambal. The smell of it on fabric is so disgusting. Argh. I'm having this never felt before ache on the left side of my back. Its painful and restricts me lying down without having to groan in pain. Argh why can't it get any better. Worst still tommorrow is TUESDAY. It will be a long long day. I doubt I'll be able to go through tommorrow without having to be putting a black face and throwing tantrums. Argh I just need a break after what has happened. Where can I get one? Weekends please arrive fast.